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(no subject) [Feb. 15th, 2005|12:01 am]
[mood |happyhappy]
[music |Imagine : John Lennon]

Happy Valentine's Day to all!

Hope everyone had a wonderful day, I know I did. I have been crowned the new master of keeping secrets. Jena didn't suspect anything like what I did for her! Everything was planned out to the last minute/retarded detail. I had her girlies keep her away for a bit and set everything up. I made a trail of rose pedals up the stairs to her room which was accented by some Hershey's Kisses. I spelled "I Love You" in front of her door where there was a bear holding a sign that read "Now that I've kissed the ground you walk on, will you be my Valentine?" with a chocolate rose beside it. I had her favorite Deathcab song playing, dinner set up, and a nice floral centerpiece for her when she walked in the room. I also crocheted a scarf for her.. just how she likes them. We saw "Hitch" after dinner which was quite comical, but got somewhat predictable towards the end.

I'm sorry that the day had a few bumps in it today baby. <3

I love doing things like this for her. No, not just because I am a romantic person. I love doing these things for her because she is absolutely amazing (I know she will disagree with me, but it is the TRUTH). I can be myself 100% of the time with her with absolutely no fear. She is so much fun to be with her, I find myself constantly laughing until I am red in the face, having wonderful times at dance parties, and having that deep down feeling of happiness as she lays asleep next to me. We have been together for about six months now, which seems like mere days. I guess time flies when you're with the most wonderful person in the world.

I love you Jena Elise Michael Ponsford Johnson. I am so fortunate to have you in my life and to share it with you.

We went to Ramp Ranch this Saturday where I busted my face once more (not as bad as last time though). I can almost hit the curved wallride, but I've got to grow some balls and haul ass at it. Ryan Smith was going a billion miles an hour and flying around that thing. Bastard! Jena sat on the top of the huge sub on the corner quarter to wall and flashed that beautiful smile down at me while I was falling on my arse. Jed was back riding too, which was great to see. He finished kemo in Maryland and is back in town for a while (not supposed to be riding of course, but it's hard to stay away from).

Dance party on Saturday night! Jena/Jessica/and I went over to Luis' house and DANCED IT UP!!! So much fun. Luis, if you're reading this we have to have a pirates vs. ninja dance party soon. get one it! Go ninja go ninja go! go mickey's go mickey's go mickey's go!

Time for bed!

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(no subject) [Feb. 10th, 2005|12:56 am]
[music |Radio : Alkaline Trio]

School is HARD. I guess it gets this way when you're actually trying. I have to perform well this semester, or I'm going to get kicked out, go to CCCC, and spend my life working at McDonald's.

I am still pondering the existance of some sort of higher being, and I haven't had much luck with coming to some sort of conclusion. A large portion of the thinking has made me feel one way, but there is still one question that forces me to the other side. I have come to one conclusion though, I really disagree with organized religions.

Jena and I went to Ramp Ranch last Sunday, and I rode well (at least I think so). I got 360s back over the box jump, and I'm somewhat confident that I will be able to get 360 x-ups soon. The Empire contest is going to be amazing, so will the video. I'm going balls to the wall from now on..

We also went to Thai Thai today..so much fun spending time with her<33 i got my ass kicked when we wrestled today. shit. <333

Thankfully, I have a much better room and a much better roommate this semester. We're not best friends, but we get along nicely. Falls is exponentially better than Jackson as well, the people here seem quite a bit nicer too.

I don't have time for a huge update now.. it's 1:08am. Fuck 8am classes and philosophy.

p.s - happy birthday catherine

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quizzzzz [Jan. 24th, 2005|02:17 pm]

My Father thinks I am: An idiot.
My Mother thinks I am: not capable of doing anything on my own.
My grandma thinks I am: I am a good kid.
My girlfriend thinks I am: retarded. shut up, you love me.
My best friend thinks I am: a brother

Your three best qualities: I can keep my head in most stressful situations. I love laughing and being funny. I know my way around a wild chicken.
Your three worst qualities: Being grumpy. Not talking about how I feel sometimes (i'm working on that.) Shooting shotguns with hillbillies.
Three things you are often complimented for: My humor, my eyes, my kindness.
A compliment you got that made you blush: "I'm lucky to have you"
I get embarrassed when: When I do something retarded and I know I'm going to get caught or called out for it.
What upsets you the most is: When I overanalize the most retarded things.

Do you keep a diary?: I guess this is like one..
Do you like to cook?: yes. the microwave is my friend.
Do you have a secret you have not shared with anybody?: hrmmmm
Do you fold your underwear?: yeye!
Do you talk in your sleep?: I have before
Do you bite your fingernails?: no, they are dirty
Do you believe in love?: definately.

Last song you listened to: Have You Passed through this night? - Explosions In The Sky
Last song that was stuck in your head: Downtown
Last movie you watched: props issue 54
Last DVD you bought: One hour photo
Last CD you listened to: what's a cd?
Last person you called: dirty
Last person that called you: ODB
Last TV show you watched: Family guy
Last person you were thinking of: <3 jena

Do you wish you could live somewhere else?: I would really like to see England, spain, france, germany, south africa, chile, japan.. i think that's it
Do you think about suicide?: I have in the past
Do others find you attractive?: maybe?
Do you want more piercings?: yes!
Do you want more tattoos?: yes
Do you drink?: mmmm
Do you do drugs?: sure!
Do you smoke?: yes
Do you like cleaning?: depends on what mood i'm in
Do you carry a donor card?: haven't registered yet, I don't know if they're going to want my shit when i'm done with it.

Have you ever cried over a boy/girl?: yes.. those darn boys
Have you ever ever lied to someone?: sadly
Have you ever been in a fist fight?: no, but i've been clocked in the face
Have you ever been arrested?: I'm workin on it

What shampoo do you use?: umm
What perfume do you use?: Mac
What shoes do you wear?: magic shoes that help me fly
What are you scared of?: getting hit by a car, the world ending, nick nolte.

Number of times I have been in love?: Twice.
Number of times I have had my heart broken?: quite a few
Number of hearts I have broken?: i dunno
Number of boys I have kissed?: too many
Number of girls I have kissed?: i think that's even with girls.. shit.
Number of people I've slept with?: 2
Number of people I consider my enemies?: one.
Number of people from high school that I stayed in contact with?: Almost everyone
Number of CD's I own?: none!
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: there was a picture of a fat, big headed baby in the paper in 1988 (story time at the library!!).. that was me. I got in the Dallas Morning News for this bmx thingy too.
Number of things in my past that I regret?: I've lost count. Don't want to regret anything in the future.

guess that's it!
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abba dooba [Jan. 11th, 2005|11:55 pm]
Winter break is almost over! It has been a somewhat interesting time at home this time around. I have changed a lot since I have lived here, but everything here has remained the same. For instance, my mother expects me to be at home at 12am every evening (disregarding the fact that I am now eighteen) and still treats me like a little boy. I know she loves me and wants to protect me, but some of this stuff is completely retarded. She doesn't realize that if she'd trust me a little bit everything would actually turn out alright. There is no evidence against me to warrant such treatment, so I don't know why she's doing this.

I have been somewhat busy as of late (not with work of course!). I was fired from my job at Eisenberg's for letting one of my friends, a regular at the skatepark, take a rental helmet (which probably doesn't even belong to Eisenberg's. They find helmets in the park after we close and put them at the rental counter to make money off of) without paying the $3.00 rental fee. Well, this individual did not ride at the skatepark, let alone go past the retail counter. He left to go get his bike and come back to the skatepark. Essi (the owner's husband) asked me if I made him pay for it. Being the person that I am I told him the truth. Upon recieving this information he seemed quite upset, but did not issue me any sort of warning. My friend then comes back, buys a helmet for $32.46 and leaves. Well, the next day when I was shopping with my friend Rebecca I get a call and find out I'm fired. Complete bullshit! Well, long story short Jena's brother Paul is getting his lawyer friend to write a nice little letter for them..

My shouty and I went thrifting today (after the fucking allen courthouse) and got some bad ass shiza. Jena got a fucking AMAZING dinosaur shirt and I got some jeans, a sweet polo, and a suit jacket. We came home, smoked, played rummy, ate pizza, and i got my ass kicked in scategories. I have gotten to spend a lot of time at jena's house and I LOVE it! I got my late Christmas present in, and I know everyone is going to be jealous. A fucking bad ass bronxxx shirt, stickers, and a button pack. Thank you Dirty<3

I'm banned from Eisenbergs so I don't have anywhere to ride in dallas until spring break. I'm going to go to motive soon to get some new (mostly used, but new to me) parts before I go back to San MArcos.

I've been coming down with something, so I'm going to head off to bed now and hopefully finish Choke.
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ah fuck [Jan. 6th, 2005|10:35 am]
yah.. i love eisenbergs so much I came 6 hours early for my shift. sitting in the office with ty = sweet!

biggie smalls = retarded
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Today is handrail day! <3 [Dec. 7th, 2004|09:33 pm]
[mood |excitedexcited]
[music |Your Retro Career Melted : The Faint]

I did my first handrail ever today! I kinda did one at Eisenberg's a while ago, but I got really messed up when I tried, so I guess that one didn't count. My friend Zach pointed it out to me a while ago and it's been in the back of my head for a while. I ran up to it a few times and pulled a Jimmy Levan (roll up twice and HAVE to go for it the third time). I didn't get on and fell the first few tries.. cut up my elbow and hand, but i got on the third attempt. I only slid it for a little bit the first time, but I had a smile from ear to ear. I haven't had that satisfaction from riding, and I LOVE IT.

After I did the rail about 6 times I decided to head for the tennis court ditch. There's a parking barrier on the top of it now that I didn't have a chance to hit because my friend Dane showed up and took me to Jeff's newly finished mini ramp. I hadn't been there before, but I was pleasantly suprised when we got there. It's about 6 ft tall and 10 ft wide. I was trying some 540s on it, but could only get a little bit past 360. Next time i'll get them!

I'm really happy that I saw Dane. I've never really gotten to hang out with him before, and he's a really cool guy. Jeff and his roommates are also bad asses, I have a lot in common with them. Ryan (roommate) has a graphics company that he needs more artwork for and he wants me to submit some of my stuff. STOKED! I can see myself becomming really good friends with these guys.

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dark days, dark days [Dec. 6th, 2004|11:35 am]
[mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[music |Ain't Nothin But a G Thang : Snoop Dogg]

Why does it rain so much in San Marcos? The weather has been horrid for the past month with only a few days of halfway decent weather.

School has been alright lately. I'm going to end up with better grades than I though I would. I just have to keep it going until finals are over and my GPA should be halfway decent.

I gave my speech for mass comm today on Gandhi, which went suprisingly well. Since class was canceled on the day I was supposed to go I gave it in front of the teacher. bling!

Drunken boxing is bond.

I want to ride my bike.. christmas break will be filled with skatepark fun.

I did some stupid shit earlier this week which wasn't like me at all. I know my limits now and I am going to be the epitome of self restraint when it comes to them. shite. I really can't believe that I hurt the person that I care so much about. I really hope the she fogives me and knows that i cannot express how much she means to me. I'm so sorry baby, I will never do that to you again. I care SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much about you and i can't tell you how sorry i am and how shitty i feel because of that.


Queens of Comedy is really fucking funny.

I realized that I'm really insignificant in the whole scheme of things recently. In contrast to my old ideas that is quite frightening....

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(no subject) [Dec. 2nd, 2004|01:07 am]
I raised an army over thanksgiving.

i have to go to bed, so that's it.
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blingg [Nov. 24th, 2004|09:05 pm]
After a few hours of sleep last night and a lot of driving today i'm at my sisters apartment in Norman, Oklahoma. It's going to be really fun to see her and other family, but I want to see people from dallas. ;aslkdfjasd;fla

Oh yah, i got a SWEET coat.

+1 hardass point for me

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(no subject) [Nov. 17th, 2004|09:32 am]
i want to go riding. it's raining. fuck!
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